I Hate This Feeling.

I always drive myself insane.

I hate this feeling of happiness

but feeling that there's still something missing.

Searching for it is just as bad. I want

this feeling to go away....now. 

That is all.

When The Sun Hits The Ground.

During the day, I'm okay but when the sun fades away
everything comes traveling up my spine once again.
I haven't talked about "him" in a while, my mind has
been traveling non-stop, trying to circulate around anything
but him or love for that matter. I still miss him and some
nights are truly so much harder than others.

You know what hurts even more? Trying.
It's when I try to find someone and when I do
find someone who makes me happy they're either
not interested, already taken or there's some other conflict
keeping me from being with a person that makes me happy.

I think that's the worst part, is opening yourself up and having
yourself hurt once more. How much can a single broken heart
handle? I don't know, but I'm still breathing and loving life. Nights
like these are just hard sometimes. However, "nothing will keep this
heart from beating." Thank you Mayday Parade.

Nights Like These...

I am Sad.

Strong

I hate seeming weak.

However, I am emotionally drained.

That is all. 

Go Ahead

Go ahead and rip my heart.

I am nothing but your disastrous art.

Show me off and she me proud.

Leave my head up in the clouds
and hear my heartbeat tearing loud.

Go ahead and twist me into pieces.

My body and soul everyday decreases.

Tell me that you love me and lie to my face.

Oh, I thought you wanted the chase?

The game you play, you twist and turn --

every head, every wound, and every burn.

Make us believe that you're in love &

you'll be the only person we ever think of.

Though, that is not the case. We lacked your charm and grace.

Dear heart, don't you cry. You're better off alone, 

rather than being caught in her big web of clever lies.

Roller Coaster.

I've Been Living A Roller Coaster.

A Moody, Amazing & Terrifying Roller Coaster.

The Moment

When you feel your heart dropping, your
mouth drying, your hands shaking and your
body going completely numb...do you
know that feeling? Because I know
it awfully too well...too well.