I often find myself crying at this hour.
I wish I could cry alone though.
For some reason at this time of
night, certain thoughts hit me.
And they hit me hard.
I have this paranoia.
Paranoia of life. I constantly
fear love, failure, people, trust,
school, death and just life in general.
Everything around me terrifies me.
Sometimes I wonder...what was I
put on this planet earth for? And why
in the sane hell can't I follow my dreams?
WHY am I stuck in a place where I
feel useless and completely powerless.
I try, and try and all I do is fail. Thats
not supposed to happen. Is it? NO.
I cry. And when I cry its because I'm
hurt, scared, terrified, scarred...and so on.
The list goes on and on. I am afraid
of life and what life has to offer me
or yet...what it "doesn't" have to offer me.
Sometimes, I feel absolutely worthless.
Useless. Stupid. Ugly.
Not myself, and out of
my own damn skin..
I am scared, nay I am frightened.
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