I am In Love With You

My Current Theme Song.

I am In Love With You.

It's as simple as that.

I absolutely adore Imogen Heap. Anytime I need

a song that describes how I am feeling I go to her.

"I am in love with you"

It's as simple as that. I am in love

and it's with you. Funny eh?

Love is funny. A little mad.

A lot mad. Who am I kidding?

Love IS madness, especially

in my very twisted situation.

"Oh hey baby don't you run away

come here and finish what you started"

Oh he'll run away alright. He always

runs away because fear has taken over his life.

Its funny how he pretends that he hasn't

started anything yet he runs away. Does

that make sense? Am I even making sense?

At one point in the song she says

"No don't get yourself in situations,
darling that you can't handle."

He can't handle me. Apparently
he isn't "ready." I am the situation 
that he can't handle and I

understand that. I kind of have
to try to understand it. Again it's all
from fear that is attached to him.


The phrase "No one will know, if you forget yourself,
No one will know, that you forget yourself"

I know I forget who I am when I'm with

him. I lose myself within him. I'm not sure if

he does the same, but I've seen a side of

him that no one has ever seen. A side people

would be shocked to see. I'm assuming he

forgets himself and just "lives." It's something

he tends to forget. Is to "live for the moment."

Towards the end of the song she keeps

repeating "Come on into my bed with me,
I know you want to." She wheels him into bed

and in the end after she gets what she wants

she says "I'm not in love with you."

To me this can mean two things.

One: He went into bed with her and she

decided to rip his heart out like he did and

after getting what she wanted she said

"I'm not in love with you."

Or Two: He doesn't go into bed

with her and she's trying to convince herself

that she isn't in love with this man any longer

by repeating over and over that she isn't

"in love with you." 

Both analyzations are probably wrong but

in my head this is what it means. I prefer 

neither honestly. I'd rather have him come into

bed with me and stay there. Hurting him is something

I'd never be able to do because I know whats it's

like to be hurt. Convincing myself that I'm not

in love is impossible. It's like trying to convince

myself that I'm not a girl. Yea, really bad

example but you know what I mean right?

It's just impossible because in the

end I am in love with you. Convincing

myself otherwise would just be faulty.